Today just wasn’t my day. This was a bad run from the start.
I was hurting during the first 5 minute run. The walking breaks weren’t long enough and I was constantly searching for air. I huffed and puffed through the last two runs. It hurt physically and it hurt mentally. I thought I was almost there. I felt like I could get to where I wanted to go if I just kept trying. Now it feels like I’m regressing.
I don’t know if I’m doing week 5 next week. I just don’t. I’ll think about it over the next two days. I think I can do it. There are five minute breaks between each run and that seems to be my main problem here. Then I think about the 8 minute runs that follow and I get depressed. I’m dying on these runs. How am I going to do that one? I know that I’m basically running 8 minutes with a 90 second break right now. It doesn’t feel like it though. As for the 20 minute run on day 3 of week 5? It pisses me off. I hate to even think about it. I’m not even close to being ready for that.
I can’t quit so I’ll face all these things eventually. I’m glad I don’t have to today though. I’m just not in the right state of mind to be fighting any losing battles right now.